I came home from camp within 10 lbs of my goal. I was looking forward to starting seventh grade. Everyone would love me and my new body now.
But that's not what happened. The girls hated me for being skinny. The boys were meaner to me than ever. As a joke I was nominated for student council. One boy laughed in my face and said "gee Kelly, you always wanted to be popular! ". Older boys would corner me on the school bus and say lewd things to me. I felt very unsafe. It was then that a light clicked on for me. Losing weight put a bullseye on my back. As the boys spoke to me I made a conscious decision to gain my weight back and I have not been goal weight since.
So I went on through junior high school and high school a little bit heavy but the funny thing is I'd kill to be that weight now. I hated my
body and was constantly afraid of males.
My mom and dad and I started going round and round about my weight. So my weight became a way for me to rebel now. A way to say "you can't tell me what to do! "
By the time I graduated from high school I was wearing plus sizes.
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